colours of my job - outcast

Never have I felt like such an outcast.

[16:12] me: we moving nx week to new office
[16:12] CK: yeah siok
[16:12] CK: new office
[16:12] CK: expanding
[16:12] me: and i just found out all staff have free lunches until some eatery shops opened there
[16:13] me: and we didnt know anything abt it!!
[16:13] me: nobody mention / tell / inform us of the lunch
[16:13] me: they just leave us starving
[16:14] CK: :)
[16:14] CK: working environment is like that one lor
[16:14] me: the WHOLE company have free lunch
[16:14] CK: ouch
[16:14] CK: except u guys huh
[16:14] me: and only us the outsourced ones sitting at the corner starving
[16:15] me: damn i could curse right now
[16:15] CK: calm a bit
[16:15] CK: i have lost my temper over the years
[16:16] me: *sigh*
[16:16] CK: bring ur own food no need depend on them
[16:16] CK: u hv de $ to buy ur own
[16:17] CK: not like them... eat free... as if no $
[16:17] CK: altho some earns a lot
[16:17] me: wat a way to end the weekend
[16:17] CK: relax la, plenty of things to cheer in life
[16:18] CK: dun let this small details spoil ur brilliant life
[16:18] me: u'r the adopted child, u dun expect any love except some care, now they dun even let u eat at the table with them
[16:18] CK: nicely-quoted
[16:18] me: or worst they dun even cook ur share
[16:19] me: dunno how to describe
[16:19] me: disappointment and rage
[16:20] me: no not strong enuff
[16:20] CK: fury
[16:20] me: help me find a word to describe this feeling
[16:20] CK: furious
[16:20] me: ok, fury, furious.. wat else?
[16:20] CK: kejap, no need to scratch head
[16:20] me: wat abt the evil part of it?
[16:20] CK: show u de magic
[16:21] CK: KRUY is PISSED OFF ha
[16:21] me: i need more depth feelings than tat
[16:21] CK: add the magical F-word
[16:22] CK: lots of options for u
[16:22] CK: ready ?
[16:22] me: tat is to scold ppl not to describe how u feel inside
[16:22] CK: http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/furious
[16:23] me: a stonger and more powerful word
[16:23] CK: angry (adj)
Synonyms: annoyed, irritated, fuming, mad, livid, irate, heated, gnashing your teeth, cross, furious, incensed, enraged, outraged, infuriated, ireful, wrathful, indignant, choleric
[16:23] me: ah
[16:24] CK: none ?
[16:24] me: err, alot of the words i duno the meaning and nv seen b4, haha, gotta check them out first
[16:25] CK: fuming is my pick
[16:25] me: but there's no disappointment element in it
[16:25] CK: i know!!!!
[16:26] CK: DEVASTATED!!!
[16:26] CK: http://www.google.com.my/search?hl=en&q=define%3A+devastated&btnG=Search&meta=
[16:27] CK: complete destruction and with angry element
[16:29] me: hmm
[16:34] YeeWei: thanks, now tat i am able to describe it, i'm gonna blog abt it, and that will make me feel better - destress

The next day I seek advice from my ex-boss and she made me realized the fact of life working in an outsourced project - we're only the maid, will not be the adopted child, so never to expect anything from them. I've never thought the truth could be so ugly and pathetic.